Filmmaker Statement

My ideas of birth are inextricably intertwined with my notions of death, and so for me, pregnancy is connected to grief. My personal journey with fertility is linked to my depression, my anxiety, and my heartache as much as it is tied to my hope, the love I have for my partner, and the love I have for my family (chosen & blood). This film is a love letter to my body, the process of conception, whatever it may look like, and to my friends. I hope the film allows the viewer to challenge their connection to the process of conception and creation. I wanted to make a film about an artist community that isn’t about their work or the importance of art but rather about the importance of who they are as a support system. Everyone in this film is waiting for something: waiting on life to begin, creativity to strike, careers to burst open, and grief to pass. How we wait is often how we cope.